IBTSOME Chapter 58 Part 1
I BECAME THE STEPMOTHER OF MY EX-HUSBAND
Chapter 58 Part 1: Dead
Wife
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Gu Cheng Yao didn't know
what was wrong with him, suddenly on this quiet winter night, he remembered his
first wife Gao Xi.
Gao Xi passed away in
December last year, which was also a snowy winter day. As soon as Gu Cheng Yao
returned from outside, he was told that Shizi Consort had gone.
What was his mood at that
time? He didn’t know, he just remember that he was very shocked. Because the
jade pendant’s matter he had prejudice against Gao Xi. Later, he didn't like
her domineering personality, so he even more didn't want to go back to see her.
It wasn't until Gao Xi died of illness on that heavy snowy day that Gu Cheng
Yao knew that Gao Xi's illness was already serious.
Before that, he had
always thought that was just the inner house women’s blackmailing trick.
Gu Cheng Yao learned about
Gao Xi’s news all through Bu Mama and Yun Hui. What he heard the most all day
long was generally how Shizi Consort kicked people around and how she relied on
her family background to bullied the old servants of the mansion. A gentleman, of
course, should pity the poor and cherish the weak, as a results it was
difficult for Gu Cheng Yao to have a good impression of his wife. Later, Gao
Xi's news gradually disappeared. He began to think that Gao Xi realized her
tricks were useless, aware enough that she was embarrassing herself so she
restrained herself. It was a long time later he realized that Gao Xi had
stopped the news and prevented people from passing it to him. However, Gu Cheng
Yao never expected that when he heard the news of Gao Xi again, it turned out
to be the news of Gao Xi's death.
At that time he was
standing under the hall, the white snowflakes kept falling from above onto his
shoulders. Gu Cheng Yao stood in the wind for a while before slowly remembering
that before he went out today, it seemed that there was indeed a maid who came
over and invited him to see Shizi Consort. He was anxious to go out at the
time, and disliked Gao Xi to use such tricks to lead him back, so he didn't
take it seriously and sent her away. It turned out that should be the last time
he and Gao Xi met, but he still didn't go back.
Gu Cheng Yao finally went
to the backyard to visit his Shizi consort. Gao Xi's house was as quiet and
orderly as before, completely couldn’t tell that its mistress no longer there.
Gao Xi was extremely strict with her servants. Gu Cheng Yao had always felt
that Gao Xi who easily punished at every turn was no good. But at that moment
he was standing in the house where Gao Xi was alive. Although the servants had
red eyes but they didn’t dare to be noisy, the people although messy but not also
chaotic. Gu Cheng Yao was surprised that Gao Xi's prestige among her servants
was so strong that even when she died, no one dare to disobey her rules while
she’s still alive
Was this the situation
where Gao Xi was not favored and seriously ill in bed for a year?
When the attending maids saw
him, they bowed their heads to avoid him, as if he was not in the house. Some
of the maids were probably Gao Xi's close attendants. When they saw Gu Cheng
Yao, their faces were indignant, but they were immediately taken by the people
next to them.
Gu Cheng Yao thought that
he should go to see Gao Xi one last time. Those few maids were very unwilling.
One maid even said, "When Shizi Consort was seriously ill did not see
Shizi come even once. Now that Shizi Consort’s heart has stop beating and the
entanglement has been broken, Shizi instead come over, why is that? Shizi
Consort walked by herself to get peace and quietness, why should Shizi disturb
her death?"
The maid dressed in silk
was pinched by someone next to her before she finished speaking. She could only
reluctantly shut her mouth and bowed her head angrily. Gu Cheng Yao had been pampered
since he was a child, when was the last time he was contradict by people like
this? The suffocation that had been lingering in his heart since learning Gao
Xi's death diminished a lot. Gu Cheng Yao wanted to turn around and leave directly.
Who are these maids dare to spur him? But Gu Cheng Yao didn't leave. He let his
personal attendant pulled away the white cloth. Separated by life and death, he
saw Gao Xi for the last time.
Gao Xi’s nature was
headstrong, even at this time, she had herself cleaned up, showing no signs of
weakness and sickness. Instead, she was painted delicately and vividly, as if
she was just asleep. Gu Cheng Yao only took a glance, before letting people put
down the white cloth and turned around and went out.
The impact left to him by
this last sight was far greater than Gu Cheng Yao's own imagination, and even
greater than Gao Xi's imagination.
Since then, Gu Cheng Yao
had been deliberately avoiding Gao Xi's death. In Gao Xi's mourning hall, his
father-in-law, that is Gao Xi's father, the Duke Yingguo’s Shizi, cautiously
proposed him to remarry his family’s daughter. Gu Cheng Yao agreed without
thinking about it. He thought he would need a wife soon, as long as this
position was not empty, Gao Xi's figure would soon fade away. In fact, on that
day he didn't hear clearly which Gao Xi’s sister that was, but later learned
that it was Gao Xi’s sister from the same parent, Gao Ran.
The rest everyone knows,
Gao Xi passed away and Gao Ran became the second wife. Gu Cheng Yao told
himself that this was very good. All the mistakes were restored. Everyone was
happy. That was enough. After Gao Ran got married, Gu Cheng Yao tried his best
to be nice to Gao Ran out of a compensatory mentality that even he didn't realize.
Everyone felt that this was because Gao Ran was really loved by Shizi. Gu Cheng
Yao almost felt the same way. But on this quiet and cold snowy night, Gu Cheng
Yao heard the same sound as that day and realized that it might not be true.
He was guilty, he compensated
it on someone who didn’t know.
When Gu Cheng Yao was
very young, he often heard her mother’s story about her encounter with his
father. Almost every day, as long as Shen shi has time, she would told Gu Cheng
Yao about Yan Wang’s life-saving grace and love for her. In fact, the details
of Shen shi’s story often changed, and Gu Cheng Yao didn’t know which ones were
true and which ones were Shen shi's own conjectures. His mother liked to read story
books very much, and she could hardly extricated herself from the stories of
talented men and beautiful women, heroes and beauties, and often couldn’t
distinguish between reality and falsehood. Although Gu Cheng Yao felt that his
mother was not so good, she was his mother after all. Gu Cheng Yao immediately
felt that it was really unfilial to think so.
At that time, there were only
grandmother, mother and him as the three masters in the mansion. Grandmother
would sometimes call him over and teach him, but not long after he sat down,
Shen shi would follow him and weepingly stood on the side, her eyes stared at
him, as if afraid Gu Cheng Yao would be abused. Of course, his grandmother was
very displeased. After reading a few words in the book, she could only let Shen
shi took her son back. After this happened several times, his grandmother
rarely took care of Gu Cheng Yao anymore.
The impact of childhood
was always silent and everywhere. When Gu Cheng Yao grew up, he recalled the
past and felt that day his mother was not good. His grandmother, Old Yan
Wangfei, was a daughter from literature family in the capital. She taught Gu Cheng
Yao history books and Confucian classics was for Gu Cheng Yao’s sake. But Gu Cheng
Yao was still influenced by the Shen shi unknowingly. He subconsciously felt
that the love of his parents was indestructible, that gifted scholars and
beautiful women could cross the social class, and Yan Wang and Shen shi were
together because of life-saving grace. So when the same thing happened to Gu Cheng
Yao, he unconsciously fell into this kind of deliberate suggestion. He told
himself that this was the right thing to do, so he was going to marry a woman he
barely met before, someone whose identity, looks, conduct, and family were
unknown. Later, it was discovered that this was the eldest granddaughter of Duke
Yingguo Mansion, who was worthy of Yan Wang’s family. Gu Cheng Yao was
overjoyed and became more convinced that he was right.
Just like in those
mystery story book, this was exactly a marriage predestined by fate.
Gu Cheng Yao and his wife
passed the first month of their marriage, only to suddenly learn that he had
admitted the wrong person. In other words, his predestined marriage was
deliberately replaced by someone else.
This may be a story with
some ups and downs. If it Shen shi, seeing this kind of plot, she would
inevitably cry for the poor heroine and resent the vicious sister who replaced
the heroine. Gu Cheng Yao's impression of Gao Xi also plummeted. Later Gao Xi
died and he remarried Gao Ran. If life was really a drama, this would be a
happy ending.
TN: So at first GYC didn't know that he will be marrying GR, that's surprising!
Thank's for the chapter~
ReplyDeletethat's.... kinda depressing... and honestly rather pitiful. i mean i still think GYC is an a****** but i guess(?) i can at least see why he acted the way he did, given his childhood circumstances. also he's 17, so, like, it's already pretty impressive that he can do this self-reflection.
ReplyDeletei mean it would've been nice if he did it when gao xi was still alive BUT HEY yan wang's the obviously superior husband, so let's leave it as muddy water under the bridge.
thanks for the update!
You could consider that a reflection of experience though as Yan Wang really wasn’t a great husband to GYC mother being that he was away at war all of the time. Her imagination was rich not reality, but unfortunately she couldn’t face that and badly influenced her son to believe in ‘happy ever after’s’ and ‘destiny’. It amuses me that his feelings for GR are so weak, despite everything. I’m glad he feels guilt too. It’s a shame he’s growing up after marrying a second wife so quickly and without facing the consequences of his first marriage though.
DeleteI think it also implies in the chapter before GCY's mother trap Yan Wang into marriage... Though is vague...
DeleteI'm really curious to find out why his mother would be so watchful when he would be taught by his grandmother. Why would she abuse her only grandson? Because of her, the daughter-in-law? There is subtext here we're still not privy to.
ReplyDeleteIt's good he's starting to reflect back and realise his mother was probably not all that. Just like his opinion of GX was formed based on the servants' gossip instead of giving her a chance and actually knowing her.
Thanks for the update 😊!
Maybe she was afraid that grandmother would find something out... I somehow get the feeling that GCY isn't a biological son of GHY. She was either already pregnant from rape when she was rescued or had an an affair with someone else (probably sb with lower status) and claimed it was GHY she did it with.
Delete@ Unknown The author already said a number of chapters back that GCY is GHY's biological son. It was at the end of the chapter in an A/N. I don't remember what chapter it was anymore.
DeleteFeeling guilty and starting to self reflect is good but the fact is, his shortcoming cost the life of someone. Even if he was brainwashed by his mother or lied by his servant, I can't understand that after living together under the same roof for a year, he couldn't find the opportunity to talk with Gao Xi to clear the situation. I don't find him pitiful, rather narrow minded.
ReplyDeleteI feel like if we use modern terms, the mom is delusional and psychologically mistreated him. The implications here was that the mom tells false stories about her romance with Yan Wang therefore giving him a false sense of reality, and also isolated him from other family members (the grandmother). If he was older, I would blame him more. But as it is I'll just take it as him lacking therapy and not having proper parental guidance (half of which I blame Yan Wang)
ReplyDeletedamn he matured
ReplyDeleteAt least he knows his mother was not all that.
ReplyDeleteWhy agree to marriage without finishing mourning to another he doesn't know. This dude's got problems...
GX already started to reflected back on not talking to him and her pride getting in the way of Them talking .............so coupled with his distrust in her motivations 🤦♂️.l think they would never have of made a good couple
ReplyDelete'But at that moment he was standing in the house where Gao Xi was alive.'
ReplyDeleteAt the end of the sentence, since Gao Xi was already dead shouldn't it be 'had lived' instead of 'was alive'?
'Gu Cheng Yao heard the same sound as that day'.
Same sound? What sound?
So GCY, even though you know your mother was basically delusional and she couldn't even keep her and your father's 'love story' straight, you still believe the things she told you? How stupid are you?!
Parents really got huge impact to kid's mentality and growth. Shen shi and the servants undoubtedly affected CGY so much ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
ReplyDeleteThis son is an idiot. What on earth did his mother teach him? I wonder if she has schizophrenia. She seems to be living in the clouds.
ReplyDeleteJesus, CGY is a bigger f--king moron than I first thought! Personally, I always thought he actually killed Gao Xi outright to be with Gao Ran. Or Gao Ran bribed a servant to poison Gao Xi.
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